Don't believe everything I say!
You may have heard the saying "Don't believe everything you think." Just because we believe something (and give voice to it) doesn't mean it is true. It's a snapshot of where we are at in our process... it's the difference between a picture and a video. When I'm crabby and complaining about the world, I always remind myself that... it's just what is 'true' for me in that moment. If I write it down, I memorialize a moment that won't seem true when I read it later. I'm organic and in process.
Even as I write, I say some things I don't fully believe. But I want to let them out, because I suspect others might resonate with those thoughts and feelings. Ultimately, they will point to needs that are real, needs all of us have (either met or unmet).
On the other hand, everything I say is TRUE! By which I mean, taken in it's totality, the black and the white, the insights and the bitching, it's all real. Taken together, it's a better approximation of my journey. But it's NOT my journey. The colors on my pallet are true colors... a true blue and green and yellow, but the landscape I paint is not a real landscape, just a representation of one.
I think the biggest reason I don't write is that I know this. And I expect my words to be taken out of context and to communicate something even LESS true than whatever snippet of my journey I express. It's something I'm getting over. If you take me out of context, you see what you want to see. I can invite you to be bigger, to see more holistically, but ultimately that is your issue to work through.
My objective in writing is to create a clearing for understanding... and to engage in a conversation that is larger than any of us and encompasses all of us. That is why I write -- to participate in that conversation. Not all my contribution will be light and freeing. Some will be dark and brooding... morose and cynical... not what my friends would expect from me and not a full reflection of who I am. So long as you understand that, read on! Take what works for you and leave the rest.
Even as I write, I say some things I don't fully believe. But I want to let them out, because I suspect others might resonate with those thoughts and feelings. Ultimately, they will point to needs that are real, needs all of us have (either met or unmet).
On the other hand, everything I say is TRUE! By which I mean, taken in it's totality, the black and the white, the insights and the bitching, it's all real. Taken together, it's a better approximation of my journey. But it's NOT my journey. The colors on my pallet are true colors... a true blue and green and yellow, but the landscape I paint is not a real landscape, just a representation of one.
I think the biggest reason I don't write is that I know this. And I expect my words to be taken out of context and to communicate something even LESS true than whatever snippet of my journey I express. It's something I'm getting over. If you take me out of context, you see what you want to see. I can invite you to be bigger, to see more holistically, but ultimately that is your issue to work through.
My objective in writing is to create a clearing for understanding... and to engage in a conversation that is larger than any of us and encompasses all of us. That is why I write -- to participate in that conversation. Not all my contribution will be light and freeing. Some will be dark and brooding... morose and cynical... not what my friends would expect from me and not a full reflection of who I am. So long as you understand that, read on! Take what works for you and leave the rest.
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